last post as a monkey

So I am sort of on a holding pattern with an anxious knot in my stomach, waiting for Saturday to start and looking forward to it being over all at the same time.  Everything is arranged, 3 more sleeps and its a go!  So I am practicing my form alot and trying to not think about all the things that could go wrong.  Dreaming about dragon dancing.

I am grateful for;

frost its been so beautiful the past few days
all the positive people on the I Ho Chuan Team
surgeons, our operations manager had to go in for surgery and we hear it went well
dance class which is about the only time I'm not stressing about chinese new year
my family who are awesome! 

the last mile

I watched the video of our dragon/lion dance and must say its looking pretty good.  This is one of the best things about the I Ho Chuan ... the practices, the teamwork, the sharing, the performance anxiety. I love the getting ready part ... the actual performance is over in a couple of minutes but its the journey getting there that makes it all worth it.  I went back and read some old blogs and I can say that this was not the way I felt about it 5 years ago.  I was mostly terrified and overwhelmed, definitely NOT enjoying the journey/process.  And although I am slow, even reluctant to change, just sticking with it and failing over and over and over again to achieve my numbers and/or document my journey its still had a huge impact on my life.  Bit by bit I have been a little bit more successful each year.  My self discipline muscles are growing stronger and my attitude is more consistently positive, my life is just better!