9 of 52 Waiting

Its been a weird week, lots of things in limbo ... so I sit here in my office doing things like filing & bookkeeping (HATE bookkeeping), practice my forms, and wait for responses from lawyers, banks, insurance agents, clients, family members, friends etc. I find this kind of thing annoying as I would just like to get 'it' done. However it is good practice for me ... I have been working on 'waiting' for the whole of last year and now into this one. I have to wait for the lead when dancing, wait for other people to make decisions (I have opted out of being the one who plans everything) and wait for other people to finish talking. I know its kind of a strange task to set for yourself but I have come to the realization that I actually prevent other peoples development and growth by butting in and taking over. Along with this goes my tendancy to give advice and verbal commentary on everything ... I am waiting for someone else to talk, so to everyone that needs to practice talking and social skills or just needs someone to listen to them ... I invite you to talk to me and I will practice my 'waiting' and 'listening' (another aspect of waiting) skills.

Sifu Beckett

8 of 52

So I have been consistently using the I Ho Chuan tracking sheet that Sifu Rybak shared with me and its working pretty good.  I  got a little ahead on the situps, a little closer to catching up on the pushups, Sifu Masterson and Kichko sparred with me on Saturday so that number is now 4 not the lowely zero. 

All week I have been dealing with lawyers, bankers, insurance agents and accountants.  Its all to do with the purchase of a commercial condo that we are already settled into and the companies year end which is the end of March.  Unfortunately while in college I did not take lawyerize  and as it is all written by lawyers ... its a foreign language.  I am a well read, reasonably intelligent woman and not only can I not provide an answer I don't even understand most of the questions ... it makes me feel pretty stupid actually which is a downer.

Doing things like my forms and situps etc has been a relief rather than a requirement.  Instead of the phrase 'thank god its friday' TGIF ... I am introducing 'thank god for kungfu'  TG4KFu

Talk to you next week.

7 of 52

So Sifu Rybak emailed me her I Ho Chuan tracking worksheet and I made some modifications to it to suit my requirements and have it saved to my desktop (computer).  I gathered all my stray notebooks and scraps of paper and posted it all to the tracking sheet.  The biggest hole is the sparring, it is currently reading '0'.  Yikes!  Unfortunately I have a previous committment on Thursday nights when most of the I Ho Chuan members get together and work on stuff so I will be bringing my gear to open training on Saturdays,  hopefully someone will be available to spar with.  Sifu Rybak and Sifu Weibe are also going to add sparring to our Monday night after class time. 

Master Brinker told me at the I Ho Chuan meeting that my reluctance/failure to record my daily regeim indicates to him that I am not fully engaged in my training.  So I am taking this to heart and whether or not I actually understand the importance/benefit/relevance of writing everything down I will do it anyway and trust that it will become clear to me.  What has helped with this is Corey's blog.

The girls (Brandi & Melanie) told me about a blog that one of their fellow students (Corey) wrote and in which I found a great deal of relevance.  My insistance on following my own path and determining my own future may actually be holding me back.  It makes you think thats for sure! 

 http://balancedlifeskills.com/home/2011/09/08/concious-conformity.html

6 of 52

So I figured out how to get the picture  on this blog page to fit better ... believe it or not I am the only tech support the company has ... kind of scary huh! 

So I did something to my neck/upper shoulders and my push ups are suffereing as a result.  You know how when you work your muscles they will start to ache and if you continue they will feel like they are burning.   Well I was pulling off 30 real push ups and the rest were getting done from the knees better than before but not awesome.  So I don't know what I did but after about 10 real pushups the muscles jump directly to the burn feeling ... my neice who is a physiotherapist said not good ...  so I have stepped back on the real and am trying to be content with 10 and the rest done from the knees.  Bummer!  I was feeling a bit smug about how well it was going.  Its the one step forward and two steps back situation. 

I got a whole bunch of things done ... the ziplinning, managing emotions understress course, the alpha mind course, and my auditor recertification program.  The recertification was tough because I have to repeat it every three years and the 'Smidlap Company' (made up not real) has not improved its safety program from the last however many times I audited it. 

Because I broke a toe while in Hawaii and my foot swelled up pretty bad I was unable to do the snorkeling which is a serious drag because I learned how to swim last year just so I could do that. 

I am trying to take the successes and failures in stride and not let everything stress me out this year.  As a list maker and do er type of person I found the I Ho Chuan requirements last year made me crazy.  I was up ... I was down.  I was ahead ... I was behind.  It seemed I could not get everything done and still do my job and have a smidgen of a life left.  I was always frantic trying to get one thing or another caught up to the requirements.  And as far as writing things down ... well it was pathetic.  This year so far my progress is better although some things are still happening in starts a spurts.  Looking forward to seeing my team mates on Saturday at the meeting maybe they will have some insights to offer.

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So its a pretty cool picture ... can't figure out how to make it more reasonably sized ... tips would be great.  The girls emailed me this from their camera so that I can brag about it.   We did 7 ziplines ... this was the longest and the highest ... there is a massive amount of space before you reach dirt underneath me.  The weird thing is that I though I was afraid of heights, it turns out however that I am afraid of falling.  If I don't believe there is a risk of falling then the height does not bother me.   A fine but significant line ... at my age I think I know my strenghts and weaknesses.  Apparently I am not as smart as I think I am!