Reality Check

Driving home from Kung fu class tonight and listing to the CBC radio, there was a documentary being aired about one of the wives of Joseph Cogne (not sure of the spelling) the international courts just convicted him of numerous crimes and sentenced him to life in prison.  He is a rebel leader somewhere in Africa (only caught the last 10 minutes of the show).  This lady was talking about how she was kidnapped as a young girl, raped, held captive for 11 years as one of Jospeh's numerous wives.  Birthed 3 daughters, and lost one during fighting between and rebels and government forces.

Well it just made all my problems pretty minor in comparison. 

Another thing that I have been dropping the ball on is my graditude journalling and it shows in my additude,

I am grateful to live in this beautiful country where it is safe for me and my loved ones.
I am grateful for my beautiful home and yard
I am grateful for my very special husband & daughters
I am grateful for a full tummy every night
I am grateful that Canadians prefer dialogue as a way of solving problems and not guns
I am grateful that Mr Repay and Mr. Csillag did not drop me during dragon dance practice.

I have lots of wonderful things in a very busy life ... apparently problems exist just so we can appreciate all the good stuff.

What about me?

I know this happens and I tried to prepare for it ... but no matter what I do I just can't control everything. Family issues have been eating up my time like crazy ... I have not done any spanish lessons,  art projects, practice reps of tai chi, missed two weeks of blogs, no kick sequences.   I am only just barely keeping up with the situps and pushups, fallen out of the habit of recording my acts of kindness ... I don't feel very kind ... just annoyed and tired of how I seem to be the only one who actually does anything for my mom (my side of the family).

I want to stand up and yell "hey what about me????"   "I have important things to do you know!"

Would my brothers just leave my mom uncared for if I stopped dealing with all the issues, checking on her, making sure she is still alive?  What kind of people am I related to?