It has been very challenging this last couple of weeks to stay focused on Kung Fu. Dean & I are doing a solo performance (quickstep) and a group dance with three other couples. So just like the Silent River Banquet there is a lot of intense practicing before the performance date. My feet hurt, I have blisters, I am stressed out and I falling behind on my king fu numbers because this week everyday we are practicing dance routines. Why do I do this? It must be love. I am really concerned that the solo that Dean & I are doing is going to crash and burn. The dance is fast, a single mistake and its almost impossible to recover or cover up, I could wind up on the prone on the floor. For some reason my husband likes the quickstep ... fortunately for him he doesn't have to wear high heels and run backwards.
The owner of the dance studio tells us all that this is not brain surgery ... no one dies if you make a mistake ... just have fun, but I am finding it difficult to enjoy this performance and will be really glad when its over. Next year we are going to do a west coast swing or a waltz, they are nice and slow!
So yes I am having performance anxiety!
There must be some deep seated issue that I have that gets me involved in activities that require performing. I will be investigating this further and will let you know when I figure it out.
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